If you feel lost in your church right now, you are not alone.
If you read scriptures looking for answers, and you either find the same old passages or stuff you just don’t understand, you are not alone.
If it seems like you are the only one your age in your church or with your viewpoints, you are not alone.
If you continue to go to church, hoping to feel the Spirit or because you need rescue from the heavy feeling that can haunts you all week…and you rarely find it, you are not alone.
If you are shut in and beyond a friend’s reach or in a hospital bed and no one seems to visit you, you are not alone.
If you rage at the world, teetering on whether to give up or lash out, you are not alone.
If you’re having a hard time feeling good anymore, you are not alone.
If you started feeling numb a long time ago and it feels like your life is a bad movie you keep watching, you are not alone.
If the world doesn’t make sense to you anymore, you are not alone.
If you feel isolated because only happy people are on television commercials and the people around you see seem shallow, you are not alone.
If you are in a bubble and don’t feel like you can actually reach out and feel someone near you, you are not alone.
If you wonder why your grandchildren don’t call, you are not alone.
If you’re afraid your kids will never get off drugs or out of debt, you’re not alone.
If you cut or wonder if you can give up the addiction, you’re not alone.
If you don’t think you’ll every dig out of debt, you are not alone.
If you’ve lost your job recently and just can’t find work, you are not alone.
If you are under 30 and have cancer or know someone who does, you are not alone.
If you feel like you were born in the wrong body and you’re just not sure who you are or want to be, you are not alone.
If you gave yourself away to someone and, now, hate yourself and regret it, you are not alone.
What’s missing on this list? These are all things that have touched my life personally or through family or a friend.
Chances are, whatever you are feeling or struggling with, there are others who are struggling too. There is healing in finding common experience. There is hope in real community.
You are also not alone because some believe that God, the maker of the universe, came down to have a human experience. He experienced injustice, abandonment, tragedy, and victimization by the world he lived in. They said he would come, so they named him, God-with-us.
If you’re looking for a sign, well, here is one.
You are not alone.
Over the last few weeks, I’ve been tackling problems that don’t revolve around ethereal stuff like “new ideas,” “vision” and other theological talk that can lack consequence. In fact, I’ve been so sucked into these challenges that I’ve begun to wonder whether discussing the church’s problems or their solutions really matters if the people in the discussion aren’t somehow personally and materially invested. They, somehow, need to be givers or prepared to become givers to what we share. A giver gives so much more than money. But, they give money, too. They give to something beyond themselves.
We struggle on both sides. In the church, we have many congregations that are deeply attached to their houses of worship. 75-90% of the time, those churches are paid for. These buildings are the ebenesers, the alters, of a previous generation. They are the hallmark of our denominationalism. We are no longer a frontier movement. We now have our church on the corner. This was the success of previous generations. Because of them, I would bet 75-90% of our congregations have no mortgage, only maintenance and monthly bills. Five to fifty gather in them once a week.
Outside the church, we also live in a day when the relationship between spirituality and economics is wholly out of whack. Unbriddled greed and a world sold out to the god of wealth and wealth-production, has horribly contorted the relationship of our economic and spiritual needs. All around, I see its effects in “liberal” and conservative forms. Many Christians have literally sold out the doctrine of economic wealth and prosperity: we can spend ourselves out of crises, whether spiritual or economic. This not only makes absolutely no sense, wealth and prosperity – no matter how American – are false gods. They are not the good news, but a completely alien form of religion and spirituality. Christian faith and the call to prophetic community operates on a different kind of sense. Christ’s community is not based on getting what you pay for. Nor, is its growth based on profits or consuming more. The salvation of the church, on earth as it is in heaven, is based on what is given and what is shared: the shared grace, disciplines, practices, vision, and shared convictions. The church is a witness to community.
become my followers, let them deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. 35 For those who want to save their life will lose it, and those who lose their life for my sake, and for the sake of the gospel, will save it. 36 For what will it profit them to gain the whole world and forfeit their life? 37 Indeed, what can they give in return for their life?
Just because we know the end of the story, this does not mean we fully understand what Jesus was trying to say to the disciples and the crowd that day. Even if we feel like we understand the meaning of Jesus’ crucifixion and resurrection, it doesn’t mean we fully know what Jesus was trying to say to us in those words today. Dietrich Bonhoeffer, the famous Christian theologian and resistor of Nazi Germany, stated it so dramatically clear: “When Jesus calls us, he bids us come and die.” (Dietrich Bonhoeffer, Cost of Discipleship)
To be Jesus’ disciple, Jesus only asked that we leave what we know behind and offer our new lives to him. This doesn’t take certainty or self-assurance. It takes faith.



On June 6th, I posted a piece entitled “
Until scriptures are definitively transferred to a new format (.mp3 or BlueRay?), their form as a text will shape our spirituality. The fact that scriptures are either scrolls or codex (i.e. book) will shape our thinking about God. God will always be a wonder. Jesus will always live in narrative. The Spirit will continue to come to us in moments of communication, inspiration, and despair. All these are moments of human life. They are also the qualities of a book.